RELIEFFF!

i keep trying on my bathing suit and i never change my mind.
i actually...look good. its really nice because the monokini is stilll really sexy and fun and whatever a bikini is...but it doesnt really show my belly which is what i have the most problem with. i just look curvy and busty and muscular. its perfect.

and last night i was able to grab at my stomach and tell it to stay. not go. i didnt tell it to leave me..i told it to stay. im just realizing that. so im going to not diet. thats right. first time in FOREVER. i will eat healthy and excercise in order to MAINTAIN this figure. its perfect.

thats so amazing. its such a breathe of fresh air. now all i have to do is smile and eat right.