I bitch and bitch but do little
Today I took an hour long walk in the snow up hills and shit
so that was nice
I'm going to work out in twenty minutes and starting today i am starting biggest loser
I am motivated by those lovely people who lost 50-150 or so pounds
If they can do it, so can I
I am so proud of them
I'd like to be proud of myself
I will lose twenty pounds by June
And I will have the best fucking summer of my life
because I'll have somethign to be proud of
and also, I will not put myself down
I will not give up
and I will not give in to my eating disorder
I'm going to kick this, and I'm going to kick it right
I GOOD amount of calories per day
counted
my body is not a fucking trash can
I will not put shit into for momentary cravings
Eat right.
Excercise.
I suppose I've been hearing it all along.
Unfortunately we live in a world where image is everything, most of which is brought about by companies eager to cash in on our insecurities by selling whatever they can to make us feel better about ourselves. Thankfully I’ve reached a time of life where I don’t give a dam whether people like the way I look or not, if they don’t like me as a person then I don’t want to know them anyway. However being young as you are I can see why image is important to you and I wish you well in your quest but don’t beat yourself up about it cos I reckon there are lots of people who are proud of you as you are, if you can achieve your aim then that is a bonus. Walking is good as is any exercise. I lost two stone in two weeks walking the Pennine Way last summer which was easy to do as there was no other food to tempt me, I just had my trail food and the exercise I was forced to do to make the end of the walk. The hard part at home is to avoid the temptation, there is too much of it and it’s too easy to give in to something you like. Anyway as I say, good luck, be happy and if you can, and say stuff to what others think. Bob.
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It is dreadful for me, selfish I'm sure, but all i can think about is image, image, image. I hate being that girl...you know...the one that is obsessed with calories and wants to look like a model. but what are you really going to do.
I am proud of you! i wish sooo much that I'll be like you one day, able to love myself for who I am and not care. You are intelligent and I envy you.
Thank you :)